The time
of Samhain has past, the final harvest over. We now spiral inwards as we
are in the dark part of the year, a time of reflection. I have a lot to
think about during this dark part of the year. I need to prioritize and
yes even let go of some things. I have a hard time letting go of things
as anyone that has been to my house would agree with. I have way more
stuff than I need. I have an even harder time letting go of people.
I think people are important. I think people should feel important.
A couple of things occurred over the past two months that I think will be
instrumental in my inward journey and my move forward.
I
attended an awesome weekend retreat last month. We died, journeyed through the
underworld and were resurrected. The message I received was forgiveness.
I have contemplated this over a number of weeks. I kept thinking it
was about forgiving those that have wronged me. In reality it is about
forgiving myself. I am not perfect but I am perfect for me.
I also
had a dear friend tell me I need to categorize my friends. I realize not
all friendships are created equal. I am a very closed person and don't
let too many people get close to me. I need to open up and take a risk.
Going in with open eyes knowing that sometimes people just suck.
Myself included. But I need to remember that some people are worth
taking a chance on. But also, sometimes it's just better to let people
go. Not because they're not good people, but just because it's time to
move in different directions. Yes I would like all my friends to stay on
my journey with me but they have there own journey that doesn't necesarily go
in the same direction as mine. If everyone that I ever called friend
stayed around I would be like that verizon guy. I would hate that.
lol
So
moving forward I think I need to bring peaceful closure where I can and open up
to those that will be on this journey with me wherever that may lead us.
We have many journeys in our lives. A lot of times more than one
going on at a time.
Maybe I
removed a few of those bricks from my wall. Maybe not. Time will
tell.